So far so good.

So this whole diet thing, or rather a lifestyle change, has been okay so far. I'm staying away from sodas. I drink tea with the pink packs. My coffee is the same way. I cannot give up caffeine so that is completely out of the question. I'm trying to work in some exercise every single day even if it's only 15 minutes on my Gazelle Freestyle. Which by the way is very comfortable to use and you really do feel it after a while.

This lifestyle change is more than just about the weight though. It's about how I perceive myself. I don't have a lot of self confidence. In fact my self confidence is pretty much at an all time low right now. I'm working to bring that up. Because how can anyone else find me attractive if I do not find myself attractive. The next stage of my transformation will be to stop working in PJ's all the time. Okay...okay...I don't work in PJ's but I do work in natty old t-shirts and shorts. Those are fine every now and again but I need to start dressing to make myself feel better.

Speaking of feeling better, I do have to say there is nothing quite like an ex to put you into perspective. It does go to show that even though you have moved on in your life and changed, emotionally and mentally, they may not have changed much. Breaking up with someone is hard. If someone tells you they had a good breakup it meant that they didn't really mean that much to each other in the first place. It is the honest truth. And sometimes you just can't reconcile until both of you reach the same place. Women tend to reach those places first because, well, we're superior but that is a different blog. Men tend to stay in their own ruts. They develop the frat boy mentality at first and before long they are set. They do not want to break out of those set pattens and often find themselves still clinging to the past bitterness. I have to be honest and say that there are some women that do that. Clearly not moi. For I am not that way, no way do I stay in a rut. HA!

So maybe time moves on, people change and you find yourself in a brand new place in life. It doesn't have to be a bad place though. It can be a good place. It is a place where you work on who you want to be. It is a place where you try to find the good inside and let it shine. I'm not sure if this whole Positive Thinking/Universal Abundance thing is actually true or not but it certainly never hurts to think positive thoughts. Just remember...you cannot succeed unless you try!

My recommendation for you today is the book "Too Soon Old, Too Late Smart: Thirty True Things You Need to Know Now" by Dr. Gordon Livingston.